First one.

So here is the first one in a series of a few.... well a lot hopefully. For a while I have been thinking about keeping an online journal, ie kinda blog-ish, about my life and all the happenings in it. Most know that my life at times can be more entertaining than a Showtime version of 90210 and I like to share it with others, so here we go. Shaun started one of these things a few days ago, and so i just figured, eh, what the hell. So now on to the blog.

So a month ago I was totally confused about stupid boys and stupid people that only lived to make me question myself and my abilities. I finally had my break down, came out stronger and said fuck um! I haven't been this happy and unconcerned about others in a while. I really have started over mentally and it could not have come at a better time.

There are a lot of things I am doing now to help improve myself. This is one of those. I have for too long bottled up all my emotions to the point of where they weight so heavily on my soul that it hurts. So this little bloggy is kinda like a mental colonic. Which is what I was going to name this blog... Mental Colonic... but it's my sense of humor, not everyone would have enjoyed that. But that's what is going on. This is a place for me to say what's on my mind, what's bothering me, and basically to tell people to eat my taint.

The next thing i'm doing is taking better care of myself. I am running in the mornings and then taking Grannie Helen out to walk, not like she's a dog, but there is a walking area around a pond that she likes to go to, but not by herself. I'm also eating better. No more fast food at lunch and I haven't had a soda in 3 months. It's a helluva lot more expensive to eat lunch during the day, but I feel much better during the day not eating fast food. So hopefully this will pay off and I can be a little healthier and get to a place where I feel good about myself.

The last thing I'm doing, which may surprise most of you, is not going out and not drinking. That's right.. I have given myself one night a month to where I can go out and drink. I just decided that I am sick of the bar scene in Arkansas. Going out here alone makes me miss Jeff, Tyler and Shaun even more. I don't really have anyone, save a few people, that understand what being a friend means. Most want to fuck you over and take what you have instead of helping you get it. But different blog for a different day.

I have found something that makes me happy. The only thing is, is that I don't know about it. That's all that is going to be said about that right now. But it's on my mind a lot...... a lot a lot. Work blows. The people that I hate there are still being cunts, so I don't see that changing... ever. But....I LEAVE TOMORROW FOR SOUTH PADRE ISLAND! I'm so excited. I will be blogging about that the rest of the week! Anyway that's it for now. Save the TA-TA's. Save the Prostates. Save Yourself